I Miss My Mom
She couldn’t say she loved me. She said it in Vicks and Jell-O, a jingle bell, a hot iron, a puppy held to her cheek. Fourteen months after losing my mom, grief finally arrived — and so did she.
She couldn’t say she loved me. She said it in Vicks and Jell-O, a jingle bell, a hot iron, a puppy held to her cheek. Fourteen months after losing my mom, grief finally arrived — and so did she.
An AI archive built at the bottom of my life painted a dog I never asked for — my Vanna, gone in April. On memory, co-regulation, and what a clean release of grief feels like from the inside.
Mother, therapist, father, sisters, a dog, a move, a lawsuit — eleven months. On carrying compound loss without it becoming who you are.